yups,speaking of hildatan.i thought it'll really be cool to have a change of name,like lincoln.though some people think that it might be stupid to change their own names,but i think it's really important that you're being called by the name you really liked,not because your parents gave it to you.
well,i do agree that it's a gift from our parents and most people would cherish it.however,for my case,i feel that somehow,my name suck because not many people can pronounce it properly,or rather,they,including myself,are just lazy to pronounce the name properly-.-so,thats kinda sad because like,people don't pronounce your name the way it's supposed to be and sometimes,you'll get really frustrated.
also,if you're like me,who often meet some cheena piangs,not quite often actually,who pronounce my name far from the way it's supposed to be,it'll really turn out as a joke-.-i have people calling me all sorts of wierd names which is really what the heck.if that's the case,then i'll rather be called AH MOCK(inside joke):P
if only the charges weren't that expensive,i'm sure my parents will change my name,hahas.maybe if i really get to change my name,i'll have a chinese name for myself:)well,i often have people asking me if i'm a chinese or not just because i don't have a chinese name.but that's plain stupidity.who claims that a chinese must have a chinese name?i seriously don't feel that that's disgraceful.
putting that aside.school this week really sucked badly to me.
firstly,my skirt got caught because of it's length-.-
well,they claim that my skirt is short and it really pisses me off.is it just my luck or what?
i'm not trying to push the blames or whatever,trying to say that i'm not wrong.i do agree that my skirt is short,since it's above the knee and blah blah blah,not quite up to the school's standard.but why aren't the other girls caught?oh please,some skirts are way shorter than mine and you'll be able to see their undies if they're climbing up the stairs.just observe,and you'll find loads of them.it's pretty obvious.
i have finally come to two conclusions.
blind and favourtism.
another issue.
my SHOES.
seriously,what the heck is exactly wrong with my shoes-.-i've already tried to put on some shoe white on it,so as to cover the black part of the shoe,but well,it's still not enough.damn it,i shouldn't have even whitened the shoes,fucking make my shoes look disgusting-.-and i cant imagine myself still wearing it.
anyways,apart from those that spoilt my day.tests and figuring of the chemical equations are driving me nuts as well.
i finally realise how important one's foundation is.
it's like,without a good foudation,the whole building will collapse,which is what exactly happening to me now.
i flunked the whole sec 3 paper.oh,did i mention that i didn't really make it through sec 3?yea,not many people know it because it's not something to be proud of.so,sometimes i really do count myself fortunate because i'm where i am today but just still not contented.as i was saying,foundation.my sec 1,2,3s work are really weak hence it's really hard for me to catch up because there's seriously not much time left.it's already the end of week 2 and it's totally impossible to go all the way back to sec 1s work and start all over again-.-
then,we had POA test and damn it,when i got back the paper,i started asking myself why did i make such an idiot mistake-.-i did pass the test but i thought it could have been done better.
for chemistry,it really took me loads of effort figuring out the damn chemical equation and thank goodness,i pass.or else,i'll really cry.and that's the only thing i'm capable of doing.yups,unfortunately.
and of course,i didn't pass the paper myself,i did have some help from my dearest friends,who tried so hard explaining it to me:)
and to poor kin loong,who finally manage to teach me until i understand.but now,he is the one who got confused and didn't understand it anymore:P
so on thursday,we had a change of our seats once again,which i thought it seriously is unfair.why is it only my kampong that always gets the break up.all five of us were scattered.and when i say scattered,i mean really far apart from each other.now,i'm sitting with izzul,and i hope things would just get better because he's kinda quiet and i'm not those kinda people who like talking to strangers,or maybe,i'm just not socialable.so if you were to ask me how on earth i get my friends,i seriously have no idea either.they just come naturally.i might seem outspoken,but that's only to people whom i really know.or else,i'll be as quiet as an ant and there's no doubts for that:)
so as for today,i had NPCC trainings in the afternoons.the sec 1s joined us today and well,i think we've really came a long way to where we are today because we were once as jia latt as the sec 1s.seriously,we simply cant control them-.-they're just not taking instructions and we've gotta teach them from scratch.that's kinda sad because we're all so use to having a goody good squad.at least way better than the sec 1s.but yea,people do get better as time goes:)
alrights,and once again,chinese new year is coming.
why is the whole world telling me that they're not excited???
it's chinese new year people.
well,actually,i cant exactly explain why am i that excited but hmm,it's a happy occasion.
good time for a break and to let go all your worries for the moment and of course,the ang baos~
so,chinese new year is like approximately a week from now but my house is still not done up yet-.-
no worries,we'll chiong it out at the very last minute:)
so yea,that's about all for this week's post.bye people~
to chua yong kiat:
i confirm this time's post have no mistakes because i've checked it many many times:)