anyways,it's just a week of school and i tell you,it seriously suck.well,i kinda got used to sleeping early already so that's not the point that suck.the point that suck is because school life is really hectic and at some point in time,you just feel like crying.we had our first 2 tests on just the second day of school which i thought was kinda early.back in those honeymoon years,like how the teachers have described,on the second day of school we'll still be sort of like getting to know each other and seeing our new techers and blah blah blah so nothing tedious actually.
alrights,so this year,we'll be having three prelims which i've already heard it for like the forth time this year.every teacher that comes in have been emphasising so much on it.yes,and i've realised how crucial this year is.sometimes i feel that i might not be able to make it,so yea,that keeps me so worried.i know i don't look or sound like one,but yes,i am.and i'm glad that i am or else,i should really start worrying for myself.at least for now,i just hope that i'll be able to make it and move on to some higher institutions and get out of this school because it seriously is driving me nuts.
anyways,
yups,we finally have a POA teacher and i meant teacher.not those kinda relieve teacher who doesn't even deserved to be called as a teacher because most of the time,their teaching suck or maybe i should put it this way,they simply have no control over the class.thank god it's the end of those relieve teachers' lesson.seriously,if we were to have a good teacher from the start,all of our poa results will turn out to be fantastic.unfortunately,that isn't the case.or maybe it just applies to me and i really really needa do something about my poa before everything turns out to be too late.
so as i was saying,we finally have a poa teacher,she's ms thomas.although she kinda have an attitude problem,i have to agree that her teaching is really good.at least,i learnt something and at least i got my trading,profit and loss right:)i'm really proud of that.i've been trying so hard understanding that bloody thing,and yups,hard work do pay off.
as for english,it's still mdm lau and i'm glad it's still her.however,i'm still kinda worried for my english because well,english is really so important that it's still important.also,recently i realised that i seriously cant write anymore essays.damn it,i've got no good ideas for essays anymore.not only does it applies to english,it's also the same as for chinese.there was one night when i was trying to finish up my english holiday assignments when i realised that damn it,i seriously don't know how to start on the essay and i almost broke down:(
as for today,school's still as boring plus we have NPCC in the afternoons,so that's double the torture.yups,after such a long time,i've finally decided that i should face the reality and go back for my npcc training.however,i didn't enjoy it at all.but well,i still gotta endure it for at least another three to four months before my batch can step down:(i really cant wait for the day.like what felicia said,the passion just isn't there anymore.
tomorrow is CCA open house day and i cant imagine myself pulling the sec ones into npcc and telling them how fun npcc is because well,that will so much be like a lie.but maybe it was fun in the beginning,just that in the end...well...people do get tired of some stuffs after doing it for a long time and unfortunately,i'm just one of them.
yups,and speaking of npcc,that leads me into another issue about my skipping of trainings during the holidays.well,we do have to pay a price for everything we do hence i'll remain as a sergeant for the rest of my npcc hood because there's no way that i'm gonna get promoted.well,i think i shouldn't complain much about that since i gave up a chance that was given to me.so yups,i should say 我看开了.
so anyways,today's training really is a torture.just got alot of scoldings because we were no where near the end of the cca open house preaprations which is tomorrow.somehow i felt that our booth is a little too empty.as compared to the ncc's,i feel that theirs' are more occupied.let's just hope that it'll be really smooth tomorrow so that our dear felicia wont have a hard time.
and just one last thing to blog about.chinese new year is round the corner and i'm really excited for it despite knowing the fact that after the chinese new year,all the remedials will start and i'll have alot and alot of stuffs to do.so yea,i'll enjoy myself while i still can and at the same time,study as hard as possible while i still can before everything gets really too late and there'll not be any turning back.the o lvl results will be released this coming monday and well,like what so many of them have mentioned,somewhere near this time next year will be our turn and i do hope that i'll have a wide smile on my face then.and even if i do cry,it'll only be the tears of joy:)
i do have alot of hopes for my future as i really really want to live good next time.i know it's really random to post this but well...who doesn't hope to have a good life.that's the only reason to why people are studying so hard aint it?don't tell me it's because you just don't wanna lose face.oh please,that's just crap!!!
oh god,this is really a very wordy post so well,kudos to you if you've finished reading it:)
till the next post,bye people~