wow!it's so freaking early in the morning right now:)and our dear hilda is still not asleep.
well,sleeping has been really hard for me these days.i can get all so tired and i just cant go to sleep.is this known as insomia?should i see a doctor?maybe he'll give me some sleeping pills and make sleeping easier for me.it's so wierd,i cant sleep at night and i sleep so much in the day-.-i can sleep the whole of the afternoon.oh no,what have i done!have i changed my whole biological clock?day turns night and night turns day.damn it,i think i'll just die when school reopens which is just in a month time.
anyways,have you guys finished up your holiday assignments?
hahas,i've got loads of them to complete.just started not long ago together with jm.we went to burger king for study session and in the end,i got so tired.books just make me so wanna sleep but i cant sleep-.-what the fuck is this man,damn it!!!
one month of holiday have passed and thinking back,i realised that i've done nothing productive and i meant nothing,really nothing.
i skipped most of the NPCC training,or rather,all of them except for one meeting and i cant explain why either.
is it because i am sick and tired of it already?i'm starting to feel that it's more of a drag than a kinda fun.i used to enjoy it but now,i cant explain this wierd feeling.
i once said i wont give up on something without trying but i just gave up upon something that i've always wanted even without trying.i know,i shouldn't.i regretted.but what can be done now?seriously,nothing.
mummy is picking every bit of my flaws recently.
cant she just feel proud of me for once?
my bills went dodos,
daddy made me pay for it.
i got a huge hole in my pocket now.
quarelled with that pms bitch days ago
and she's just so damn ridiculous,
i cant get over it. and i'm not giving in.
sorry to say,but you'll remain transparent until then.